Miolea Organic Farm

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It is Monday night at 7:30 pm we are to take our spent layers to be processed Tuesday morning.  We will take the processed chicken to the soup kitchen with a big sign informing them that these birds need to be stewed in order to tenderize the meat, so that patrons can eat them.

What the note will not impart is the emotional and therefore physical and mental toll that their demise has caused us.  I have no appetite or motivation.  We have taken off of work this week in order to take the chickens up, celebrate two birthdays one 50 years and one 80 years. 

So we have planned how we will get the birds in the cage and take them. We have selected the second flock and the rooster from flock four.  We are taking eight chickens up to be processed.  It has been awhile since I've had such a low point but I am emotionally drained and morally conflicted.  Growing up in the city, decisions never had a life or death outcome.  Who you would pick to field your side of a team was the biggest decision I had to make.  Now we had to select those chickens that needed to be culled and their life ended.

I know hundreds of thousands if not millions of people process or get their chickens processed but, we have fought off this decision for six years.  The anguish associated with it has been painfully documented on this forum.  We are not profitable enough to keep spent layers for their natural life.  As much as we tried, we are operating in the red when it comes to our layers.  The business side of this is very plain, the emotional and anthropomorphized association is stronger yet intellect has to rule over emotions in this equation.

Say what you will, think what you will; we have gotten too emotionally close to these birds.  We need to temper or navigate a better relationship but make sure we stay as a humane farm, and at the same time keep the hearts we had when we first started in animal husbandry.

It is 6:45 am, Tuesday morning and we are gathering strength to go out and pack the birds up.  I can not take flock one.  There are three left of the original six and they lay about a dozen eggs a week, but more importantly when you approach any of these chickens they kind of squat down and let you pick them up.  They trust us enough to stop what they are doing and position themselves to be easily scooped up in your arms.  I cannot take these birds when they show so much trust and security in us like that.  I am not going to easily pick them up, put them in a cage and send them off to their demise.  I just cannot do it.

I have been fighting tears, depression, and low motivation and down rite malaise.  Like everything on a farm we must learn how to be stewards, humane and sustainable.  Last night we discussed stopping the practice of using chickens in our nutrient and pest management practices and let the rest of the flocks run their course.  We will have to see after today how that discussion plays out.  For now I have to get going in order to make our appointment in Pennsylvania.

We got the birds and placed them in the carrier.  The hardest one was the youngest rooster.  He was chosen because he was an unknown.  The current rooster is predictable, not aggressive and crows loudly so having people on the farm with a rooster that does not attack is a good thing.

The drive out was okay, I still have know appetite and I'm in this daze almost like I'm in my body but I don't have control of my body.  I'm an automaton, driving a package to be delivered and I need to wait to take the package to the soup kitchen.   

We get there and we do not know what to do, "take the cage around to the dock," an Amish woman in full length dress and bonnet tells us. I walk it around and there are about ten cages with various birds in them.  I place our cage down and I wait.  A young Amish man comes out, he's blood spattered from head to toe and he asks me about them.  I can't really hear him, I just tell him we need them processed for the soup kitchen.  

I think he might have asked it we wanted any of the innards.  I said just the chickens please and that was it he was gone.  I walked back to the truck and we placed the cooler in the front of the store. We walked outside found a shaded place to sit and started reading my bug book.  As time slowly ticket by I was painfully aware of every sound coming from the back of the building.  Time past and they called us, "Your cooler is very dirty, do you have bags or do you want us to put them in anyway".

We thought they would bag them for us but they didn't.  Luckily I had brought bags with us that I had intended to use in order to leave them at the soup kitchen. We placed them in the bags, threw some ice on top and took the cooler out to the truck.

I'm sorry to be cliché but it was surreal, I only knew what I was suppose to say, which was either "yes, no, you have to ask my wife".   Then the woman said something that woke me up.  She said "all of these chickens were sick", "What do you mean sick?" I asked.  "They stunk inside and their livers were diseased.  There still good for soup though" she added at the end.

It was at those words that my mood, outlook responsibilities and culpability in their demise came full circle.  They were sick.  By divine intervention we forced ourselves to make an emotionally steeped decision to the benefit of the birds and to the people they will feed.  The deed has been done and lessons have been learned.  

Some farmer I make, it is what it is, you can take the boy out of the city but so far the city has not come out of the boy.



Spent Layers and Humane Farming

Raising Rhode Island Red hens has had its ups and downs for us.  We've had to euthanize for illness and we've brought injured hens back to a laying state from a dog attack.  The question of what to do when they stop laying has weighed heavy on us.  I have written of the heartache, guilt and anguish that we face due to the outcome of this decision. 

One day I had a tour for a group of city folks who are environmentally sensitive and wanted to learn about sustainable practises.  For the most part it went well until we got to the hens.  “What do you do with your hens once they are past their useful egg laying life?”  My first thought was to say go to LocalHarvest.org and read our blog.   But instead, I said, “I don’t know, our first flock is still laying and we are into their fourth year.”  Actually we get about six eggs in a week from the five residents.  Without blinking an eye the man says “It’s horrible the way hens are used for laying then disposed of, denying them a full life,” I wanted to ask if he ate chicken but I didn’t.  He’d freak to learn meat birds are processed as early as thirteen weeks.  He wants the hens to live out their life even though they do not produce.  And that is a growing school of thought even though hens can live up to thirteen years.  I had written about this and I wondered if I was being tested.  I’ve learned that less is more so I didn’t say much on the topic.

I did relate some of my dismay with having to make economic decisions for the health of the organization that have the opposite effect for the hens.  I explained feed costs and so forth and h elooked like he was genuinely interested in the plight. 

 When we got to the end of the tour I showed them the difference between a real free range organic egg and one purchased from the local supermarket.  I also talked about the Mother Earth News article that pointed out the benefits of true “free range” eggs.  True free range eggs are high in omega 3’s, lower in cholesterol and saturated fats and have seven times the amount of beta carotene.  I then talked about the difference in price and how our eggs were basically three times higher than in a grocery store and I saw some heads shake.

The tour ended and we were selling vegetables and fruits but the eggs were not moving.  Having extolled the virtues of free range eggs I asked did anyone want any eggs.  “No, we are vegans” was the reply.  My next thought was to ask if anyone wanted to adopt a hen.  And, being the kind of person that has a dysfunctional "brain to mouth" evaluation system, I blurted the thought out.  I got quizzical looks after the question until I started to explain. 

We need help paying for the food; we’d take care of the birds but feed for them costs money.  I’ve been worrying for a couple years about this.  We can not take a chick, raise it from a day old and then dispatch it because they don’t lay enough to pay for their own food.   But we can not stay in business if we keep hemorrhaging money.  But in that instant in front of the group the idea just flashed.  Adopt a hen or the bird gets it.  A similiar threat was used before, on-line, by a young entrepreneur, why not now?  Besides, a person bought pet rocks before, surely adopting a hen so it could live their life out was a beneficial way to spend.

I felt good about that idea but after everyone left I had time to think about how things would work.  When you look at this world and in particular the US and know that people go to bed hungry every day the idea just pales.  Why would people spend money on keeping a hen a live, so they can live their life out, versus giving to a food bank to feed the poor and less fortunate?  I volunteered in a soup kitchen for about a year.  I saw first hand the faces and families of poverty, bad decisions and working poor.

It was then that peace and clarity came to my mind.  We can process the hens and give them to the local soup kitchens.  A sense of warmth came over me when my thought was that the hen’s final purpose was for humanity and we could stay true to our values.  It doesn’t lesson the pain we will feel and the associated guilt but at least we can hold on to the fact that the hen’s last act is helping feed the poorest and less fortunate among us. 

The hens' demise has been on my mind since before we purchased the first flock.  We are a humane farm and we have given our hens the best life they could live.  I too believe that a hen should live a natural life but when you start to accumulate the amount of  hens we have either we need to charge ten dollars a dozen for eggs, or we can process them or we can go out of business.

Going out of business is just what the Industrial Food Complex (IFC) counts on for the small farmer.  They can not compete with local small farmers when it comes to safe, fresh and tasty foods that have a small carbon foot print and benefit the local economy.  This movement is growing, more people are learning of the perils of our industrial food supply and thousands of people like us are doing extraordinarily hard work to provide safe, tasty alternative choices.  We have found a way to use our spent layers as part of being a humane farm and that feels good.

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